Oh no, Had I known!!
I wish things were not done that way!!
It could have been better!!
If I know I would have listened to the sincere advice I was given by people that meant well for me!!
If only I could turn back the hands of time and undo what have been done!!
I wish I have not gone this far!!
I could have walked away before things went far and I became entangled!!
I could have said NO to that friendship and association that has ensnared me!!
Is it not too late for me?
Can things ever be the same again?
Broken heart, shattered dreams, wounded emotion, misplaced priorities, empty promises, betrayed confidence, bitter tears and wrong choices that have been made that has brought me to the point I am now.
If I had known, I wouldn't make that friend!
If I had known I wouldn't take such decisions!
I saw the handwriting on the wall but if only I had waited a little to understand it!
I was warned but I did not listen to anyone...
I felt I could make decisions on my own
"It's my life and I am responsible for whatever choice I make, whether good or bad...."
" why can't people just mind their business and leave me alone, what is it, what is all these....?"
So was the reply I gave to everyone who cared to help...
Years after, it dawned on me that truly there is a way that seemeth right unto a man but the end thereof are the ways of death.....
I realized in a hard way that not all that glitter is gold...
I realized that where no counsel is, the people fall but in the multitude of counselors (and not just any counselor, Godly counselor),there is safety.
I felt I could do it on my own,
I felt I was too strong to fall,
I trusted myself and I forgot that the adversary I was contending with was far wiser and older than I am...
No wonder the Word of God says let him that thinketh he standeth, take heed lest he falls...
I thought I was standing, I never knew that I was sinking already,
I never knew that I was gradually walking into the trap of the enemy blindfolded by vain confidence...
He that been often reproved hardeneth his neck shall suddenly be destroyed and that without remedy...
I was warned severally, reproved, chastised but I had made up my mind to go in that path that seemed good to me...
But when reality dawned on me, a lot had been lost, deep wounds have been created, avoidable mistakes that leads to regrets have been made....
Depression set in, Suicide thought crept in..
Why don't I just end it here and now?
Just when I couldn't take it anymore, Something happened....
MERCY HAPPENED!
UNMERITED MERCY HAPPENED!!
THE LOVE OF GOD HAPPENED!!!
He (GOD) found me, He ran after me and caught me right at the brink of death and hell... "MERCY SAID NO, I'm not gonna let you go"...
HE held me close and drew me to Himself, HE said I belonged to Him.
Oh, the overwhelming, never ending, reckless love of God.
He sought me and found me, He showed me love again that I did not deserve...
He gave me a new life and made me brand new...
He lifted me up from the miry clay of sin, shame and regrets and placed me upon the Rock to stand...
He translated me from the kingdom of darkness to the Kingdom of His dear son, from being rejected and despised to be Royalty and Desirable...
He painted beauty with the ashes of my life, He wiped away my tears and gave me Hope, Peace and a New reason to live....
MERCY FOUND ME
Yes, I regret the times I had wasted, the commandment I rejected to pursue my selfish plans,
I regret the times I scoffed at warnings and despised the love of godly counselors,
I regret the pains I allowed myself to go through and endure,
I regret the times I lived in sin,
I regret all the wounds that might leave behind scars
But...
I thank God for saving me from the WORST OF REGRETS, which are:
The regret of turning down the lover of my soul....
The regret of having to spend eternity in hell fire....
The regret of eternal torment.....
See, you cannot change anything again, whatever happened has happened...
How long will you continue to feel sorry for yourself?
How long will you tie yourself to your past regret and not move forward?
There are some regrets that are temporary but there is one that is forever...
You might have one regret or the other but please don't allow those regrets to lead you to an Eternal regret.
Come out of those regrets and let HIM that specializes In making A Message out of a Mess change your life, He can paint Beauty with your ashes....
Step out of your past regret and embrace a new life.....
Flee from the Eternal regrets of Spending Eternity in Hell fire.
Shalom
© Winnie
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